I find myself on the cusp of something wonderful. I suppose it's what one might call a new chapter in my life. More simply put I find I have just tiptoed into adulthood. Still, there must be a better way to describe this situation, because it feels so much more complex than that. I'm sure it isn't though. In fact, this must all be terribly average.
When I initially began planning my adult life 4 years ago, "The Plan" was quite different from the situation I find myself in now. Still, it held strong all the way through until it could finally be put into action, and even then it seemed realistic. After all, I'd worked very hard those four years to make this, my dream, happen. I would be roaming the many buildings of MIZZOU in the fall of 2008, a student persuing her calling in life. There was simply no arguement. Unfortunately, my financial situation wasn't nearly as forgiving. So, I opted for another solution, The Marines. Sure, it was a bazaar choice for me, the most academically motivated girl on earth, but I needed a solution. Unfortunatley that solution proved to be one of the toughest decisions I've ever made. If by chance you are unfamiliar with this sect of the armed forces, you must know, that it isn't oriented for those who haven't the heart it demands. You cannot be a part of it without giving your mind, body, and soul. A task many recruits will so willingly do (brotherhood syndrome?) but, my soul belongs to another endeavor. After much contemplation I decided that despite the heavy financial blow, I would instead go to college in the fall as initially planned. In the end, my overall happiness trumped the financial offer. Something I feel is important for maintaining my sanity.
This is where I currently find myself. On the verge of finally persuing my dreams. A state both exciting and terrifying. Or, it would be terrifying if not for my partners in crime Ryon, Mike, and Emily. Perhaps in the future I'll offer some explaination as to their awesomeness. But in the meantime, I think this will suffice.
Thus, the documentation of my baby steps into adulthood begins.